[It's funny, really. She didn't think he'd tell anyone, but at the same time, every single time she's done this, she's been bracing for the Enforcers to kick her door down and drag her out of her apartment.
But that hasn't happened yet, has it? Nope! She's sent despair after despair after despair (offscreen, of course), and as far as she can tell? It's their little secret. Which should make it that much more despair inducing, not just for her and for him, but for Edea too. After all, she's the one who compared this to a game, and how can someone play to win, when there's an entire side of the game they're not even aware of?
But that's a problem for another day, anyway, since all she's focusing on today is sending despair. And boy oh boy is this going to be a lot of it. See, presumably each time she's sent despair to Fulbright, she's focused on a specific instance of it. Sure, he might not know the specific causes of each feeling, but to her, they're pretty distinct. First, there was the despair of being her. It stands to reason that the despair of dealing with her sister would've been another instance. And of course, the despair pertaining to the incident that kickstarted a ton of her plans back home, because that came up recently. Oh, and the despair from the Peromei incident, and well, she could send the despair from her recent outing, but that's a little boring right? After all, at least one of the Enforcers got to deal with that first hand, so that'd be a little lame to repeat herself so quickly.
And besides, because it's a game (blame your fellow Enforcer Fulbright), she really should raise the stakes. So instead of some lame ass feeling like that, she'll go all out. So he gets a rather intense feeling, like even more intense than any of the despair she's sent before. Because what could be more despairing than how she felt when the Ultimate Despair was ultimately executed? Or well, almost executed since this place sort of interrupted that.
So there's the despair of sentencing herself to death. The despair of even being in a situation where something like that could happen to begin with. The despair of the first phase of the execution. The second. The third. And so on up until the world of Empatheias ruined the grand finale. Despair compounded upon despair upon despair upon despair upon despair upon...well, you get the idea.
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Date: 2015-07-17 11:09 pm (UTC)But that hasn't happened yet, has it? Nope! She's sent despair after despair after despair (offscreen, of course), and as far as she can tell? It's their little secret. Which should make it that much more despair inducing, not just for her and for him, but for Edea too. After all, she's the one who compared this to a game, and how can someone play to win, when there's an entire side of the game they're not even aware of?
But that's a problem for another day, anyway, since all she's focusing on today is sending despair. And boy oh boy is this going to be a lot of it. See, presumably each time she's sent despair to Fulbright, she's focused on a specific instance of it. Sure, he might not know the specific causes of each feeling, but to her, they're pretty distinct. First, there was the despair of being her. It stands to reason that the despair of dealing with her sister would've been another instance. And of course, the despair pertaining to the incident that kickstarted a ton of her plans back home, because that came up recently. Oh, and the despair from the Peromei incident, and well, she could send the despair from her recent outing, but that's a little boring right? After all, at least one of the Enforcers got to deal with that first hand, so that'd be a little lame to repeat herself so quickly.
And besides, because it's a game (blame your fellow Enforcer Fulbright), she really should raise the stakes. So instead of some lame ass feeling like that, she'll go all out. So he gets a rather intense feeling, like even more intense than any of the despair she's sent before. Because what could be more despairing than how she felt when the Ultimate Despair was ultimately executed? Or well, almost executed since this place sort of interrupted that.
So there's the despair of sentencing herself to death. The despair of even being in a situation where something like that could happen to begin with. The despair of the first phase of the execution. The second. The third. And so on up until the world of Empatheias ruined the grand finale. Despair compounded upon despair upon despair upon despair upon despair upon...well, you get the idea.
And of course...]
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